In case you didn't already know, God works in mysterious ways. He is faithful, but hard to understand. We can't know why He chooses some things and not others, and I struggle with this. All the time.
If you have read much of my blog, you know that my husband and I are struggling with infertility and that I have shared much of that journey with you (not too much, I hope.) It is an emotional process, trying to get pregnant, and so many things can go wrong. Some months I don't ovulate. Last month, I did ovulate, but didn't get pregnant. Who knows what this month will bring?
And I cry and whine and pray. I feel like I do my part with all the temp taking and med taking and sick feeling, and my husband does his part...but our miracle hasn't happened yet.
But, my journey hasn't been that long. And my story doesn't include miscarriages or stillbirths. Melissa's does. And she is still around to blog about it. And make you laugh and cry about it.
Let me give you her backstory, so you can pop over and read her Foxhole posts. Melissa and her husband have been dealing with infertility for 9 years. Yup, nine. And she had several miscarriages and one stillborn son. then they adopted a little girl. Then she had another miscarriage last month. Now, go over and read her post. I dare you. I double-dog dare you.
Ok, now that is my kind of God. The One who answers prayers. The One who rewards someone who has been faithful that long. The One who matches the things up right at the right time.
So I read that post this morning and cried. I am so excited and so jealous at the same time. Who knows how long my journey will be and in what state I will be in down the road. But He is victorious and marvelous and pouring out His love on the Radkes right now.
My turn will come. And I can say that I honestly don't know how, but I know someday I will hold a baby in my arms.
I just want that day to be tomorrow. LOL.