Do you ever have one of those days where you get so far into something, and then wonder if it was really worth it? You start down a path with all these intentions, and then it becomes something else entirely?
That's where I am.
And I wondered why we as women, do the things we do.
Let me explain. I think most of my readers know that I am battling infertility. We have been trying for about a year and a half (off and on.) I have tried several different medications and now I am on one that is making me sick. The medication warns that it causes stomach and bowel problems while it works to help you out, and I can certainly testify that those warnings are there for a reason.
So, my goal is a baby, but I am making myself sick in the process. And I am only taking prescription pills, I am not doing shots or anything else like that. But it tells me that we weigh the pros and cons of the situation and then decide what it is worth to us.
I don't know that my husband would willingly deal with this. He probably would; I haven't asked him. But it seems to me that men have the easier part of this infertility thing, but that really isn't my point here. My point is that I have decided it is OK to make myself sick while persuing a bigger reward.
Women do that, I think.
We will get sick, be hurt, go without sleep, money, new clothes, etc, all to work towards something. While I was laying in bed the other day between trips to the bathroom, I wondered why we decide it is ok. Why am I alright with the fact that this medicine makes me sick? Shouldn't I think that being sick isn't ok?
I know this is rambling, but it makes me wonder. About life and motherhood. I think any mother would tell you that they would go without to give their child something. And I'm not even there yet. I think it means to me that I already love this child so much that I would go through this just to give him/her life. I hope that's what it means.
Tell me your stories of motherhood, please. Tell me why we love like this. Give me your perspective. Give me your prayers as I navigate this tough time.
Tell me what you do.
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