Tomorrow is yet another Wednesday. Another day in the middle of the week, another day of my spring break. But tomorrow is the day we meet with the birthmother. We get to sit down with her and talk, with our social worker from the agency. It will be her chance to ask us more about ourselves and the things we wrote in our profile book.
It's a big day.
I'm trying not to focus to much energy on this meeting, because, technically, if she didn't like us she could change her mind. And choose someone else. That would break my heart.
I keep praying that she will see our hearts and know that we already love this baby. I pray that she will feel comfortable with us and know that her child will have a good home. I can't imagine the burden of choosing parents for a baby I have chosen to give up. I know she wants to make the right choice. I know we don't want to seem to eager, even though we are so excited. I know she'll probably ask why we can't have kids, and I need to be prepared to talk about that.
After the meeting with the birthmother, we will stay and talk a few minutes with our social worker, Kelly. She told us that we can bring clothes for the baby to leave the hospital in, and to wear on placement day (Gotcha Day.) We picked out two little outfits last weekend, and we will bring them with us tomorrow as well. The agency also sent us the amount that we have to pay on Gotcha Day and while we knew what the adoption would cost, it is still a big figure.
Again, I ask, keep us in your prayers.
I am a woman with more questions than answers. I am constantly searching, learning, decorating, loving and muddling my way through this life. I live under His grace. I stray daily from my faith, my diet, the road, but never my husband. I could eat a whole dish of tiramisu and not feel guilty. I could knit a sweater with all the dog hair on my floor, if I swept it up, or knew how to knit. I am hanging on, holding out, and hoping for the best God has to offer.
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4 comments:
Good luck tomorrow!
I'll be thinking about you.
I know it won't be easy, especially for the birth mother, and I'll keep you in my prayers.
I'm still smiling for you!
Big time.
lots of love
Everything will be fine. All part of God's plan and she will love you. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love ya!
I will pray for you.
In times of high stress for me I say The Lord's Prayer. I don't know why but it always brings me peace. Is there a piece of scripture that does the same for you? If so, say it to yourself over and over again til you walk into the room. Remember to breathe and take every moment in. It's the interview of a lifetime for you AND FOR HER. She's probably just as nervous about what you'll ask her as you are about what she'll ask you. At the same time, You know the wonderful things you can offer a child. Be your sweet honest self and the rest will fall into place. What time are you supposed to meet? I'll set my alarm clock and say a prayer at that time. GOD BLESS YOU!
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