I am addicted to wedding shows. I make this admission easily. I can sit and watch any shows about weddings on Style and WE and sit there all day. Lace and flowers and centerpieces and invitations and cakes and photographers. All so fun to me. I know some brides look back and never want to do it again. I would plan my wedding over and over again. I had such a great time planning all the details. Not to mention that I was planning a prom at the same time, and I was immersed in those details too. I considered being a wedding planner at one time, but I really didn't want to be working weekends when my husband is off.
All this being said, there are some aspects of my wedding that I look back on and wish were different. I wish my dad had been there to walk me down the aisle. I wish my dad could have met my husband. I wish that I could remember more of walking down the aisle and seeing Charlie, but that moment is wrapped up with 400 other moments from that day.
Why ruminate on all this? We all love the romance and spectacle of a wedding, but it is the tougher stuff underneath that makes a wedding. It is the 50 years after it that make a wedding. Weddings are tarnished when the couple divorces a year later. Even if it was a gorgeous day, if the couple splits then the moments are forever tainted with that ugly parting. I used to think love was a fragile thing, but since being married I have realized that Godly parings are made of tougher stuff. Yes, it takes work. It takes so many conversations and moments when we are angry or scared or frustrated and at the end of our rope. But underneath it all is an iron rod that God has sautered together.
Even with all the turmoil that I am personally experiencing in my journey to make a baby, I can rejoice in the fact that God gave me a marriage that is built on a solid rock. My husband is a man with a deep faith and he is what I never knew I needed. While we may never know what will come in the future, I can feel secure that he will always be my home base.
Thank You Lord for all the blessings You have given. Thank you that I am partnered with a man that seeks Your heart. Help me to find rest in the comfort You can provide. Thank you for the security of what You have bestowed upon me.
Most of all, I thank You for the next 50 years.